The third collection of Duberman's memoirs brings his story up to the present day. As the historian's public engagement deepens, he finds himself increasingly at odds with the mounting assimilations of the mainstream gay movement - and with the left itself, which he believes is smugly oblivious to the realities of gay life. Disaffection leads him to explore new ground, interweaving diary entries with letters and reflections written in 2008. By turns moving, funny, provocative and profound, this is an unflinching and honest window into a man's life.