This is a very real and bloody look at the journey I made from 19-29. Starting with the first half written at 19 out of desperation for fear of being killed and the second half coming 10 years later once I finally lived a ending worth writing about. I will walk you through the icy halls of drug addiction and dealing, college in Santa Barbara specifically Isla Vista, Depression, suicide and overdoses. However the story picks up current day with a look back on the journey through addiction, college, mental health, faith, sobriety and the events of the last decade. It is my prayer that this book can help someone like me who thinks they can't be saved because I am living proof you can.