How can a good God allow me to suffer? Does the evidence of a broken world necessitate an absent or preoccupied God? Does God even see my pain? Why does he deny me? Through this work, Kevin Thompson details his walk of faith struggling with these questions. As a child, he formed a mistrust of the world leading to a contradictory life of faith filled with self-reliance. In spite of his God given talents and his plans for his own future, God allowed suffering to enter and refine his character and deepen his faith. For over 10 years he and his wife struggled against infertility, each other, and God--ultimately leading Kevin to a crucible of choice during his dark night of the soul. Would he walk away from life? From God? Beyond providing honest reflections of the heartache of a childless man, this work also details the struggle to come to grips with a God who allows suffering--even unanswered prayers for what may be considered good dreams. A thoughtful and biblically based process is provided addressing a resolution of God's character in the face of pain. Any who have faced a deep disappointment, suffering, or even the death of a good dream, is invited on a journey to better grasp the depth and breadth of a God who jealously loves and pursues us at any cost.