'There's no mistaking the writing of Sylvia Patterson' Sunday Times 'One of the finest writers in the world' David Quantick How does the big stuff in life truly change us? In late 2019, Sylvia Patterson was a celebrated pop journalist, merrily writing about the musical greats. But with a life-threatening diagnosis, global pandemic and collapse of her industry, life took a drastic turn. This misadventure would teach her many things. The power of friendship, the shock of mortality and what happens when love is tested. How a walk in the park, a spontaneous dance and a TV hero can save your life. And what really happens when your body, never mind your kitchen, falls apart. The follow-up to Costa-shortlisted I'm Not with the Band, this is Sylvia's gallows-funny odyssey through the mid-life trials we all face, as she asks the big question: would it change her, or would she stay that same old girl?