Aged 15 and on track to be an Olympic gymnast, Lucia Osborne-Crowley was violently raped on a night out, sparking a series of events that left her devastatingly ill for more than ten years of her life. Her path to healing began a decade later, when she told someone about her rape for the very first time. Eventually finding solace in writers like Elena Ferrante, this is a work about rediscovering vulnerability and resilience in the face of formerly unbearable trauma. The author explores what has been proved, but is not yet widely known, about trauma, bringing to our attention, its cyclical, intergenerational nature: how trauma intersects with deeply-held beliefs about the credibility of women: and how trauma is played out again and again i the fabric of our cultures, governments, judicial systems, and relationships.  'If you buy one book today let it be this one...It moved me to tears and to anger.' — Daisy Johnson, author of Everything Under 'This book is burrowed deep under my skin.' — Jessica Andrews, author of Saltwater