A deeply personal memoir from Mina Smallman - former Archdeacon of Southend, activist and mother to Bibaa Henry and Nicole Smallman - which is an urgent call for justice and for positive change in Britain today. There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you - Maya Angelou Mina Smallman has lived through the unimaginable. On Saturday 6 June 2020, her daughters, Bibaa Henry and Nicole Smallman, were killed in a park by a male stranger as they celebrated Bibaa's birthday. Mina has been fighting for justice ever since - for her daughters, and for the rest of us, by challenging the toxic culture in the Metropolitan Police and calling out the wider institutional misogyny, racism and classism in Britain. Now, she tells her story for the first time. Starting from her childhood in foster care and arriving at the present day, Mina looks back on her time as a schoolteacher, and then as the first woman of colour to be an Archdeacon in the Church of England, before sharing her experience of losing her two daughters, Bibaa and Nicole. Told through grief and with compassion, humour and love, this deeply personal memoir is Mina's beacon of hope, which calls for all of us to step up, collectively, and work together for a better future.