In 7th or 8th grade I started really worrying about being fat, and wanting to lose weight. I generally would start doing exercises, then stop, not having the discipline to keep at it. At some point I became interested in calories and started counting them. I drove everyone crazy (friends at school) asking them if I was fat. Over and over again I would ask. One friend finally got fed up and said, "Yes, you're fat." And I interpreted it that he'd finally told the truth. When Martha was eleven years old, her parents' divorce devastated her. Shortly thereafter, Martha began her descent into an eating disorder that would slowly overtake her self-confidence and eventually her entire life. Martha details her journey from the innocence of adolescence and the transition into womanhood in this poignant diary of her thirteen-year battle with bulimia. With hopes of inspiring bulimics to consider change and to encourage recovery, Martha offers insight into the illness as she shares her often heartbreaking experiences and honest reflections. You will learn how the disease begins, delve into the emotional ups and downs, and witness Martha's steps toward lasting recovery. You too can start over. It's time to begin helping yourself or someone you love find the path to peace and healing.