Growing up in the 50's as the product of an insane mother, and a cold, abusive father did not make for a good start in life. There were no role models for this budding gay boy, and the way people spoke of homosexuality made me feel like something akin to a murderer. And so I spent many years hidden behind the mask of my respectable, hetero lifestyle and I spent seven years happily married to a woman. The pressure caused by my inner conflict eventually rose to a boiling point, and needing refuge from the cold, cruel world, I volunteered myself into a mental hospital for thirty days. Thanks to inner strength and perseverance, I have managed to turn my life beautifully around. Totally unmasked, and finally being true to myself, I became a successful film publicist in Hollywood working with such notables as Lucille Ball, Clint Eastwood, Barbra Streisand, John Denver, Jack Lemmon and a host of others. In addition, I became friends with singer-actress Doris Day, a star I have totally obsessed over for a lifetime. For anyone who feels that there is no light at the end of the tunnel. I believe my lifetime struggles may prove to be inspiring