Break the Silence

I am a nature lover that is working on healing from the effects of child sexual abuse. I thought up most of the poems while walking in the woods. Nature is the place that I feel the safest now and as a child. I still connect outside better than I do inside. I kept the abuse a secret for 30 yrs. Once my mind started to free the memories, I was flood with them. I would have Flashbacks that word put me back to that age feeling as I did then. There were body memories that made my body feel the way it did when the abuse happen. Some times it would take me days to get over these. They would hit any time and any place. I had help from my doctors, my therapist, medications and even hospital stays. I was diagnosed with PTSD, DID major depression and anxiety disorder. It is full of ups and downs. This as been a rough journey, but one well worth it.