Many of us carry "big dead rabbits" for a variety of different reasons. As a 17 year-old high school student, Suzanne underwent a routine abortion and soon encounters her new companion. She takes us on a journey beginning with the pain and innocence of youth, to meeting the love of her life; onto the emotional roller coaster of infertility and eventually on an exciting adoption adventure. Along her journey Suzanne discovers she is accompanied by yet another, unexpected companion. With unparalleled honesty, she speaks of the 20 years that followed her choice as she fought to come to terms with what she had done. Discover how she finally found healing and forgiveness for what she knew was unspeakable, and what she had believed was an unforgivable act. In a series of charming conversations she gives life and meaning to big, dead rabbit of guilt that she carried with her for all those years. "Why do you only talk to me when we're here?" the rabbit asked. He was sitting in one of the two paths worn by a tractor tire and I was standing on the other. "I could ask you the same thing." I said smiling down but I could see he was serious. "I don't know really," I thought for a minute. "I don't even know your name." "You never gave me a name." He stared at me. "You really don't know who I am, do you?" This is not just a story for Christians, or even just post-abortive women; it is a story of healing, hope and redemption for anyone who has been unable to put down any burden of guilt, and who may well see themselves mirrored in the author's struggle to find her own self-worth. Her pregnancy was unspeakable. Her abortion was unspeakable. Her pain was unspeakable. This is her story of the journey which gave her the courage to be outspoken.