On September 14, 1976, my life began. I gave birth to Ryan Elliot Bell, my life, my love, my everything. Ryan was an amazing child filled with love, tenderness and wit. A child who developed into a remarkable man. On Sunday June 5, 2005, my life crumbled. I lost my precious son to a cerebral aneurysm. This book of poems is a tribute to my son that I started writing to him soon after his death. I want the entire world to know how special a human being Ryan was and will forever continue to be. Even though Ryan passed away at the tender age of 28, he left his indelible imprint on all those who knew him and loved him. I forever want Ryan to be remembered and I want to share my love for Ryan to all. I wanted to name this book "Bigger than a big bus" because up until this tragedy struck, Ryan, always would say to me, "Mom, I love you bigger than a big bus". I have saved all the cards Ryan sent to me over the years for birthdays, anniversaries and Mother's Day and they were always signed "love you bigger than a big bus". This book is a mother's love story to her cherished son.